I am a Spiritual Nomad.
There is no tradition where I hang my hat.
I answer the call of the Deities,
Following the path They direct me on,
Working with Whoever decides
To make Themselves known to me.
For however long or short
A time that may be.
I am a Polytheist, first and foremost. While I adore my Deities, I have come to feel constricted by indentifying myself so strongly with the Northern Tradition. The truth is that the Gods and Goddesses, the Spirits of the land, and the land itself are my belief system. I feel constrained by the structure of a path where I’m told the way I relate to my Deities is ‘wrong’ somehow. I feel like a butterfly pinned down while still alive, unable to spread my wings and fly into my own flow.
So while I respect those in the Northern Tradition for choosing one path, I realise now that it is not mine. Loki, Sigyn, Hella, Jormungand and Family remain my Beloveds, and They will continue to be much-loved and honoured by me. But the Tradition itself is not for me. I will continue to find pleasure and meaning in reading the Eddas, and pondering my Norse Beloveds, and I will continue to research Norse culture as I please. But the main words I am reclaiming for this are freedom and enjoyment.
I love my Gods, and I love them in ways that go beyond words. That also goes beyond the ‘guidelines’ of any one tradition. I feel trying to adhere to these ‘guidelines’ limits how I interact and work with my Deities… all for the sake of being seen to do it ‘properly’. If you read Love Your Gods Your Way you will see that I have been struggling with this issue of being seen to do things ‘the right way’ for a while.
I have have many Beloveds in the Egyptian pantheon too, but recently I have started to have a number of Deities coming in Who also wish to be honoured, from a number of different cultures. Some simply wish for me to honour Them, Others wish to help instruct me through phases of development, and still Others are coming in to work more deeply. And I wish to honour and work with Them. And I cannot fully do that while I still cling to labels and practices that are not suitable for who I am now, and for where I’m heading.
I am a devotional Polytheist, first and foremost. And while I will be writing about my Norse Beloveds I am moving beyond the label of ‘Northern Tradition’ so I can better honour my many Beloveds in a way that allows me to grow not only in myself, but in my relationships with Them. Because Their opinions are what matters the most to me. As long as They are happy with my individual and unique practice that is all that truly matters.