The things that show progress – facing fears and reconnecting

I’m finally back reconnecting with my Beloveds. It has been a lonely time without Them. I had built up such a fear around my channel and of imposters that I blocked out pretty much all of my Beloveds for a time, but I also developed a deep-level fear of connecting to my Beloved Loki in particular. I took an angry individual’s mis-representing words to heart. The playing on fears and betrayal of trust plunged me deeper into my Underworld journey and brought me into my very own Dark Night of the Soul, where my channel went virtually silent.
Despite the assurances of two intuitive spirit workers in the intervening months I still let fear win.

Things started to really shift last month, though, and on the day of the Autumn Equinox I did a lot of releasing work, as well as Shadow integration. The following day I was recovering in bed (releasing tends to bring the pain into my physical body so it can then be worked out and fully released) and I just felt Loki and Sigyn there. I cannot describe how beautiful that certainty was; knowing it was Them. And They gave me the physical ‘tells’ arranged previously.

They told me it’s time to get back on the horse and stop allowing someone else’s misunderstandings to hold me back. They were understanding of why I shut down the way I did, but also very clear that I have to move on from feeling the way I do. I have work to do.
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Is Loki Still Bound?

My theory suggests both yes and no. Humans have created linear time; it helps us keep things in order and it’s easier to wrap our heads around. However, time itself isn’t linear. Time is a series of cycles and can twist back and around on itself. It is like the lemniscate (the 8 having a lie-down).
Think of Doctor Who and how he travels around in the TARDIS. He isn’t constrained by Earth’s linear time and can crop up anywhere. His companions, on the other hand, experience linear time because they live in a fixed timeline on Earth. This doesn’t mean that the Doctor can’t go back or forwards in his own timeline to see them again, though. For fans of the show ‘timey wimey’ sums it up nicely. Time is linear to us because we live through it as thus; the planet is our fixed point. The Deities, who aren’t restricted to a human lifespan, physical body, or Earth timeline, will experience time differently.
In our linear lifetime Loki may be bound or free many times. He may be pals with Odin, or Asgard’s ‘public enemy number one’. He may be with Angerboda, or Sigyn, or on his own. Our lives may be linear, but Theirs are not.
Imagine we live only in 2D and They live in 3D. If you take a piece of paper it is flat and thus linear. If you make a cube from it it’s no longer linear; where does it end and where does it begin? This is where the lemniscate (the ‘lazy 8’), or the ouroboros, come in. They are perfect representations of this.
So for those of you who wonder if Loki is ‘still’ bound, perhaps right now in this linear-time moment he hasn’t even been bound yet. Some further food for thought: going by the same theory, Asgard is whole and fallen, and Ragnarok is impending and over.

Sigyn & Moss Agate

When sorting through my hoard of spiritual information I came across some notes I’d taken from a magazine article a number of years ago about the uses of crystals in the home. Imagine my surprise when I came across the following:
Kitchen: Prevent accidents – Moss Agate is highly protective and stabilises the fiery energy associated with cookers
 … also associated with maternal love.
What better stone to connect with Sigyn? She stabilises Loki’s fiery energy and devotes herself to his care when he is imprisoned and bound, and she is a mother of two sons. Now this is where things get either strange or synchronous, depending on your personal beliefs: back in April I was trawling ebay and came across a small Moss Agate bowl, which I thought would be perfect as a devotional gift for Sigyn. I didn’t even think about the stone it was made of, just the bowl itself, which is one of the central symbols of her story.

Sigyn Moss Agate
Why I didn’t think to look up the properties of Moss Agate escapes me, as usually I research these kinds of things straight away. To rectify this I have now done a bit of research and thought I would share my findings.

Moss Agate is a stabilising stone, and helps to bring peace to those who experience mood swings or those with a lot of emotional drama in their lives. ‘No matter how difficult those circumstances may be, Moss Agate gives insight into the reason behind them.’¹ If you think about how much Sigyn went through not only with Loki, but losing one of her sons to become Loki’s fetters and the other to a curse, these properties seem very appropriate.
Moss Agate is also beneficial for people convalescing after an illness, or in recovery from addiction.² Its energy is said to be supportive, and what else is Sigyn but supportive? She married Loki, obviously knowing his character, and she stayed with him throughout his ordeal in the cave.

‘It is a stone of new beginnings and release from blockages or spiritual fetters’¹ – One of Sigyn’s heiti is ‘incantation fetter’, and she stays with Loki through all the time he is bound, until his escape from his fetters at Ragnarok. Following on from this, Moss Agate is also said to encourage you to try one more time, ‘inspiring with new ideas after a period of stagnation.’ Sigyn never seems to give up, even after the binding of her husband and the loss of her children. It’s a stone of endurance and persistence, but also of optimism.

Moss Agate is also associated with plants and agriculture, a possible connection for those who believe Sigyn may have Vanir ancestry, or a link to nature. It was used in Persia to help crops grow, ‘as a good example of sympathetic magick,’³ due to the plant-like appearance of the inclusions in the stone. It also helps to open up awareness to the devas and Nature Spirits.

¹ Crystal Bible vol 1, page 48
² The Book of Stones, page 11
³ Crystals: Healing and Folklore, page 159

Sources:
Crystal Bible vol 1 – Judy Hall
The Book of Stones – Robert Simmons & Naisha Ahsian
Crystals: Healing and Folklore – David Rankine
Notes from an article called ‘Crystal Palace’ in ‘Spirit & Destiny’ magazine – unfortunately I didn’t write down the article’s author, or the issue number.