Today marks the third anniversary of Loki coming into my life.
During this time I have come to the conclusion that I will never fully understand this nebulous Being. Even his facets have facets. Rather than being discouraged this just means there will always be more to ask about, explore and ponder. There will never be a dull devotional moment with Loki in your life.
Although I have had experiences with him in his role as gift-giver, wordsmith and inspirer it is his role as worldbreaker that has helped me the most. Loki’s lessons can be harsh; he can burn all around you like wildfire until there is only ash. So many things have ended, changed or become unviable in these last three years, but somehow I have made it through. Even long-cherished and fought-for aspects have had to be thrown onto the pyre. Loki allows me the time to grieve, he is there watching over, then he tells me it’s time to move on. So I pick myself up, wipe the ash and tear streaks from my face and body, and I gaze around me at where I am now. Like a sapling I reach for the light of the new world I have awoken to, trying to draw strength from that which nourishes me. Loki and Sigyn are teaching me what truly nourishes me, and every time they feel I’m ready Loki burns another bridge to the past, the old and defunct. Sometimes I despair that I lose yet more, but knowing He and They are there, that They believe I can get through it, is what keeps me going.
A fellow bookworm friend who is a Wiccan asked me not long ago what my favourite books from the last couple of years have been, and if I’d recommend any. Luckily – since brain fog means my memory is atrocious right now – I have been writing down what books I’ve read since 2014 and rating them so I have something to refer back to. Any with a rating of 7 are ones I might read again, but ratings of 8 or above are the ones that gave me the most information and/or enjoyment. It’s rare for me to give a 9 or 10. I thought it might be interesting to share, but bear in mind any read before 2014 that I enjoyed won’t be on here. Perhaps I can do an ‘all-time favourites’ post some time.
Note: Apologies that it’s not categorized or listed properly. I wanted to fix that but I haven’t been able to use the computer for over a week and I’m relying on my phone due to being stuck in bed. I also have bad migraines atm.
Here are the books I rated 8+:
Time for a new feature. Every first Friday of the month I will share links to some wonderful Pagan/ Spiritual items.
First up is DeBaun Fine Ceramics – I have bought a scarab bowl off this lady and my mum has a beautiful Mother Mary shrine from her. She’s in the USA so we have to buy from her before my brother’s yearly visit home to the UK; my purchases this year are the gorgeous Shiva sculpture and a custom Hathor shrine. I just have to hope my brother can fit them in his case or I may have to pay for him to have an extra bag… the things we do for the Gods and Goddesses we adore!
Here are just a few of the many items she makes:
Isis incense bowl
Gaia gold shrine
We have a gravel driveway and I’ve found some interesting pieces on it over the time we’ve had it. Yesterday I found some belemnite remnants, some fossilised shells and a hole-y stone. Dad also found a couple of bits of ammonite for me. I thought the belemnites and shells would be perfect for Aegir, Ran and their daughters, being the remains of ancient sea creatures. The ammonites would be a good representation of Jormungand, and the hole-y stone for Odin since in the Mead myth he turned himself into a serpent to wriggle through a hole.
I also found a perfectly round natural bead, and Sigyn has claimed it for Herself. I haven’t photographed it though because I hope to make a necklace or some other offering with it.
Karnak Temple was targeted by suicide bombers this morning. Fortunately they didn’t actually get into the temple but a number of people were injured.
Karnak is my most beloved Egyptian temple, I had a very special experience with a statute of Mut there. I wish others would stop imposing their religious values on everyone else and stop targeting our heritage sites. It makes me realise how much we can take them for granted. Do they really feel so insecure in the power of their beliefs that they have to destroy what came before? I feel so sad right now.