3 Years of Loki

Today marks the third anniversary of Loki coming into my life.

During this time I have come to the conclusion that I will never fully understand this nebulous Being. Even his facets have facets. Rather than being discouraged this just means there will always be more to ask about, explore and ponder. There will never be a dull devotional moment with Loki in your life.

Although I have had experiences with him in his role as gift-giver, wordsmith and inspirer it is his role as worldbreaker that has helped me the most. Loki’s lessons can be harsh; he can burn all around you like wildfire until there is only ash. So many things have ended, changed or become unviable in these last three years, but somehow I have made it through. Even long-cherished and fought-for aspects have had to be thrown onto the pyre. Loki allows me the time to grieve, he is there watching over, then he tells me it’s time to move on. So I pick myself up, wipe the ash and tear streaks from my face and body, and I gaze around me at where I am now. Like a sapling I reach for the light of the new world I have awoken to, trying to draw strength from that which nourishes me. Loki and Sigyn are teaching me what truly nourishes me, and every time they feel I’m ready Loki burns another bridge to the past, the old and defunct. Sometimes I despair that I lose yet more, but knowing He and They are there, that They believe I can get through it, is what keeps me going.

While there are questions as to whether it is a Heathen or later Christian concept, Ragnarok is a powerful image. For what comes after Ragnarok but renewal? A new world rises from the ashes of the old, one that is brighter and full of hope for the future. Loki as worldbreaker, to me, is the fierce fire that works it’s way through everything, allowing only the purest parts to survive and start over. His terrible, harsh, loving work forges our true self. He gives us these challenges because he believes we can be more.

I made my first (personal) set of prayer beads for Loki last month. I’ve had the main beads for a few months but didn’t know what design he wanted, so they’ve sat in his bead envelope waiting patiently. Finally I sat down and just asked him what he wanted. These are the result: The main beads are very tactile, with a texture similar to large sugar crystals. It’s just the right length to wrap around my hand, and I’ve found it very soothing to hold onto while struggling with the health relapse I’ve been going through. It feels like an anchor, because exhaustion, brain fog and pain can block out so much of Their presence. I’ve found Loki’s prayer beads a great comfort and focus. On several nights I have fallen asleep holding them. I’m truly grateful to him for them.

As a side note: Loki’s anniversary of coming into my life coincides with International Women’s Day. How appropriate for a gender-fluid Deity who is well known for valuing (and even embodying) the strength of the feminine.

World Book Day 2017 – My favourite books from the last couple of years

A fellow bookworm friend who is a Wiccan asked me not long ago what my favourite books from the last couple of years have been, and if I’d recommend any. Luckily – since brain fog means my memory is atrocious right now – I have been writing down what books I’ve read since 2014 and rating them so I have something to refer back to. Any with a rating of 7 are ones I might read again, but ratings of 8 or above are the ones that gave me the most information and/or enjoyment. It’s rare for me to give a 9 or 10. I thought it might be interesting to share, but bear in mind any read before 2014 that I enjoyed won’t be on here. Perhaps I can do an ‘all-time favourites’ post some time. 

Note: Apologies that it’s not categorized or listed properly. I wanted to fix that but I haven’t been able to use the computer for over a week and I’m relying on my phone due to being stuck in bed. I also have bad migraines atm.

Here are the books I rated 8+:

  • Encyclopedia of Spirits by Judika Illes.
  • The Love of Destiny: The Sacred and Profane in Germanic Polytheism by Dan McCoy.
  • Vikings: a History by Neil Oliver.
  • Embracing Heathenry by Larisa Hunter.
  • The Crane Bag: Ogham Oils and Essences by Roisin Carroll.
  • Journey to the Dark Goddess by J Meredith.
  • The Lost Gods of England by Brian Branston.
  • Aura Soma by Irene Dalichow.
  • Nid, Ergi and Old Norse Moral Attitudes by Folke Strom (research paper).
  • Scandinavian Mythology by H.R.Ellis Davidson
  • The Lost Beliefs of Northern Europe by H.R.Ellis Davidson
  • Roles of the Northern Goddess by H.R. Ellis Davidson
  • Images of Set: Changing Impressions of a Multi-faceted God by Joan Ann Lansberry
  • Goddesses and the Divine Feminine by R.R.Ruether
  • The Book of English Magic by Philip Carr-Gomm and R Hygate
  • The Gentleman and the Faun by R. Ogilvie Crombie
  • Brigid: Meeting the Celtic Goddess of Poetry, Forge and Healing Well by Morgan Daimler
  • Playing With Fire: an Exploration of Loki Laufeyjarson by Dagulf Loptson
  • Walking the Heartroad by Silence Maestas
  • Daring Greatly by Brene Brown
  • Mind Over Medicine by Lissa Rankin
  • Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom by Christiane Northrup
  • From a Drop of Water by Kim Huggens
  • Bach Flower Therapy by Mechthild Scheffer
  • The Hummingbird’s Journey to God by Ross Heaven
  • Plant Spirit Wisdom by Ross Heaven
  • Green Spirit: Path to a New Consciousness by M. Van Eyk McCain and various
  • Elves, Wights and Trolls by Kvedulf Gundarsson
  • Pagan Portals: Fairy Witchcraft by Morgan Daimler
  • Julian of Norwich: a Very Brief History by Janina Ramirez
  • Walking With the Gods by W.D. Wilkerson
  • Active Hope: How to Face the Mess We’re in Without Going Crazy by Joanna Macy and Chris Johnston
  • Holding Space: a Guide to Supporting Others While Remembering to Take Care of Yourself First by Amanda Dobra Hope
  • Upon This Mountain: Prayer in the Carmelite Tradition by Mary McCormack
  • The Alchemy of Illness by Kat Duff
  • ENUFF: Eliminate the Needless, Useless, Foolish and Frivolous by Kate Carpenter.
  • The Minimalist Lifestyle by P Morrisey.
  • The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying by Maria Kondo
  • DIY Bath Salts by Sarah McMillan
  • Bath Bombs for Beginners by Family Traditions
  • Green Guide for Artists by Karen Michel
  • The Owl Who Liked Sitting on Caesar by M Windrow
  • Wesley by Stacey O’Brien
  • Beautiful Ever After by Katie Piper
  • Silence and Shadows by James Long
  • Ferney by James Long
  • Akhenaten: Dweller in Truth by Naghib Mahfouz
  • Giants of the Frost by Kim Wilkins
  • Sacred Hearts by Sarah Dunant
  • The Gospel of Loki by Joanne Harris
  • The Atholl Expedition by Alex Roddie
  • The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
  • some of the Dark Hunter series by Sherrilyn Kenyon – yes, when my brain needs to switch off my guilty pleasure is Paranormal Romance.

Friday Finds

Time for a new feature. Every first Friday of the month I will share links to some wonderful Pagan/ Spiritual items.

First up is DeBaun Fine Ceramics – I have bought a scarab bowl off this lady and my mum has a beautiful Mother Mary shrine from her. She’s in the USA so we have to buy from her before my brother’s yearly visit home to the UK; my purchases this year are the gorgeous Shiva sculpture and a custom Hathor shrine. I just have to hope my brother can fit them in his case or I may have to pay for him to have an extra bag… the things we do for the Gods and Goddesses we adore!

Here are just a few of the many items she makes:

Isis incense bowl


Isis Shrine


Hathor Shrine


Gaia turquoise

Gaia gold

Gaia gold shrine

Hekate vase

Hekate vase

Hekate shrine

Hekate shrine

Shiva sculpture

Shiva sculpture


Bonnetain’s Loki: Mover of Stories (summary translation)

A really fascinating overview and exploration of the German-language book on Loki by Yvonne S. Bonnetain. Unfortunately I didn’t learn German at school but I’m tempted to buy the book and decode it word by word of it means gaining a better understanding of Loki from a more scholarly point of view.

Weaving the Net

I have been working on this little translation project since last fall, after I finished reading the wonderful book that is Yvonne S. Bonnetain’s Loki: Beweger der Geschichten (engl. roughly Loki: Mover of Stories), which is available as a kindle e-book through amazon.com here. Of course, I immediately went into all my facebook groups and told everybody how much I enjoyed reading that work; a work that was originally submitted as a PhD thesis and then revised and re-published in a more readily available form.

Problem: a lot of people don’t read German. So, predictably (in retrospect), I was asked to summarise it. Given that its original format is a 450 page tome of a dissertation, and given that its subject is Loki, it follows quite naturally that I was just a little overtaxed. A wee bit. So instead, I offered to translate the summary chapter of the book…

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The Problem with Piety

Although I don’t always agree with Ms Krasskova’s personal views this article gives a rather surprising and very interesting insight into the pre-monotheistic meaning of the word piety.

Gangleri's Grove

Piety is a hard word for a lot of us. I don’t have a particular problem with it, but I suspect that’s because I had good models personally and I’ve also spent the last ten years immersed academically in ancient texts wherein piety was a good thing, and presented without the baggage both of Christian influence and modern disbelief. Words mean things. They’re important. They’re building blocks of communication, and containers of culture and experience. To speak is an act of translation — a process that right there is already fraught with the potential for grievous misunderstanding (there’s an Italian saying, known to every translator: “translator:traitor.” The translator always betrays the original material by the very act of translation, necessary though it might be). We are translating our experiences and desires from the immediate but abstract realm of our own interior world into something that can influence others, even if…

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Driveway Hoard

Driveway Hoard

We have a gravel driveway and I’ve found some interesting pieces on it over the time we’ve had it. Yesterday I found some belemnite remnants, some fossilised shells and a hole-y stone. Dad also found a couple of bits of ammonite for me. I thought the belemnites and shells would be perfect for Aegir, Ran and their daughters, being the remains of ancient sea creatures. The ammonites would be a good representation of Jormungand, and the hole-y stone for Odin since in the Mead myth he turned himself into a serpent to wriggle through a hole.
I also found a perfectly round natural bead, and Sigyn has claimed it for Herself. I haven’t photographed it though because I hope to make a necklace or some other offering with it.


Karnak targeted by suicide bomber

Karnak Temple was targeted by suicide bombers this morning. Fortunately they didn’t actually get into the temple but a number of people were injured.
Karnak is my most beloved Egyptian temple, I had a very special experience with a statute of Mut there. I wish others would stop imposing their religious values on everyone else and stop targeting our heritage sites. It makes me realise how much we can take them for granted. Do they really feel so insecure in the power of their beliefs that they have to destroy what came before? I feel so sad right now.